Goals (long and rambling, like usual)
I went off plan today. It’s not that I ate too much. I just went way off plan and ate a lot different than I’d planned. Due to my job, I generally try to get to bed sometime between 8-10, depending how I feel. Then I’m up at 3:45 am ready to start the day. Well, last night I decided to have insomnia. I finally crashed at 1am. Then to add to it, I managed to sleep for 12 hours when I did go to sleep. I think I just needed to crash, but that meant half the day was wasted by the time I did get up. Without caffeine, I didn’t manage to really get up and showered until almost 3pm! Now it’s 9pm (just 6 hours later) and I’m tired again. I think I’m gonna go ahead and try to crash again. (back in the bedroom, at least.) I don’t think I’m sick or anything. The exhaustion and everything is just hitting home all at once.
I still haven’t figured out the whole “what’s gonna motivate me” thing. I’m still mostly writing down what I’m gonna do and then kinda doing it. I decided to raise my mini-goal. What happened was that after the divorce, I quite sleeping and eating for the most part. I dropped from 300 down to 275 fairly quickly. Then I went through a stage where I quickly ballooned up to the 315 I started over at. I was working under the delusion that for some reason I’d be able to drop back to 275 quickly again. Well, all of that early adrenaline is loooong gone. So, 280 is a much better mini goal. It’s only 5 pounds difference, but psychologically it’s huge.
I got 90% of what I wanted to do done around the house done. Now, I just need to do laundry, dishes and picking up. Living the bachelor lifestyle, I generally pick up things as I put them down. Wash dishes as you go. That kinda thing. I’ve got a laundry room and a dishwasher. So, I’d say I’ve done most of what I needed to get done. The 10% I haven’t done is all the stuff having to do with the kids. Things are kinda hitting home again so I’m just not up to that right now. I’ll see them again in 5 days.
Hate to say it but I think I’m gonna knock off. I’m exhausted again.
Kevin
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Sometimes we just need sleep and what you were doing today was probably emotionally exhausting too. Sleep tight!
Your sleeping isn’t depression is it? Keep your head up and take it one day at a time. You can survive just about anythng.
hopefully you’ll get some kind of routine going with sleep and that will help wiyh diet and exercise
I agree with Matt - once you get into a routine, everything will fall into place. I sometimes still have insomnia. I keep strange hours like you do… up at 3:45am. But unlike you, I’m in bed by 7:30 or 8. Only reason for that is it generally takes me 1-2 hours to fall asleep. I’ve tried staying up until 9 or 10, but it still takes the same 1-2 hours for my mind to unwind and get some Zzzzzzs. So once you find your happy place routine - things will get easier!